Prologue:
PART 1: Daddy Issues and The Milk & Money Mamma
On the Beltane winds, I come to you, half-bared, half-burning.
The old skin slipping from my body.
The new crown humming on my head.
Wild, dripping, and covered in the ashes of rebirth.
For the last 10 months, I’ve been sitting in ceremony, future-casting with the 10x version of me - that Force of Nature Creatrix who has the impact, income, and lifestyle she knew was possible all along.
I foolishly thought that once I hired my future Mama self as the Chief Executive Oracle of my business, everything would get softer.
That I’d settle into a dreamy flowy trad-wife sourdough-making nap-dress era in my work.
That I’d tone it down.
Make my brand sweeter. Simpler. Safer.
I was wrong.
Since August 2024, I’ve been in intimate ceremony with the soul of my business.
Asking, praying, grieving, stripping
down layer by layer:
What the fuck am I doing anymore
in my business?
And what needs to shift
in order for me to step
into the mother AND leader
I came here to be?
Even though I have an ongoing breathwork certification program with students I ADORE, consistent soulmate clients, and a solid community — something has felt OFF.
There’s a very good reason I haven’t launched a group program since the Fall.
Why I haven't scaled my certification program (the obvious DUH just do that choice)
& why I closed my online breathwork community (The Liberation Collective) even though it was bringing in consistent passive income.
Because here’s the truth
I didn’t want to admit for a long time…
I’ve spent my entire life waiting
to be rescued by the masculine.
First, it was my Dad, who battled a crack-cocaine addiction my whole childhood. He couldn’t be there for me because he had to learn how to be there for himself first.
Next, it was a secret forbidden 26-year-old Broadway lover/abuser who I thought at 14 would be my ticket outta small down Pennsylvania.
Then it was a 15-year relationship and marriage with my college sweetheart, where his family's money became my security blanket. As much as I cringe to say it, I never felt the need to go ALL in on my business because I never felt like I had to.
And now…I’ve met the love of my life. A man who holds and provides for me in all the ways I’ve ever dreamed — except financially.
So today I stand before you in this holy reckoning with the truth I’ve been running from my whole life…
No one is coming to build the vision
I can see in my dreams.
No one else is gonna birth what
I’m here to birth into the world.
It’s gotta be ME.
FUCK.
FUCK FUCKITY FUCK!
FUCK. I don’t want to do this alone.
FUCK. Can’t someone else do it for me?
FUCK. This is exactly what my soul signed up for, isn’t it!?
UGH - she understood the assignment!
Running away from my soul’s calling now wouldn’t just be an act of self-abandonment…
It would continue the cycle of waiting for the knight in shining armor rather than realizing I am the knight and I am the damn armor.
I can see now why the Universe delayed my journey to motherhood
— put an ocean between me and my lover
— and sent me back to live with my Mamma these last 5 months.
So I could go back in the womb and complete the rebirth mission I started over a year ago.
The one I began in the aftermath of my divorce, but got sidetracked through the delicious disorientation of love.
Because the future I crave — the barefoot, ocean-jungle milk and money mamma needs a business with a mission that’s so worthwhile, so dripping in devotional service, with so much time flexibility that doesn’t just cover the bills, but truly PROVIDES.
A business with more masculine structure, systems, support, and HOLDING for my creative flow.
Which meant I had to face the real fears directly linked to my Daddy Issues around receiving from the masculine.
The fear of embracing systems, structure, and automation in my business.
The fear of trusting others to hold me.
The fear of asking and receiving more reciprocity for my work.
The fear of needing to control every aspect of my business.
The fear that if I go ALL IN, I’ll burn out and have no capacity for motherhood.
This has been my inner work these last 10 months. Face-to-face with the fear that my dreams would be impossible…
Impossible, unless I remembered the truth…
That none of this is how it was ever meant to be.
Mothers were never meant to give birth alone.
And neither are our businesses.
But you already know that First name / babe.
We ALL know the “it takes a village” spiel.
But…
If you’re reading this, I know you know deep down…
You don’t just need the midwives in the room as you’re crowning to birth your business baby.
You need something far more seductive.
Far more, dare I say…dominant.
Something that doesn’t just provide for you…
But insists on your full devotion and deepest lustful surrender
And let me tell you, once THIS force is at the head of your business…
You will never go back to business as usual ever again.
Stick around my love…things are about to take a salacious turn.
PROLOGUE
Part 2: I fired my Biz Coach & hired a Pleasure Dom Daddy.
Why Erotic Energy is the Missing Link in Your Spirit-Led Biz
My rapturous beloved,
You don’t just need a creative midwife to help you birth your soul’s calling into this world.
YOU NEED A PLEASURE DOM DADDY to hold down the freakin fort.
To tell you you’re a glowing goddess even when you’re covered in sweat and your own shit.
To hold you with the most tender of devotion and say, “You got this baby girl,” when you wanna give up. “Trust me, trust yourself, trust the creation we’ve made together.”
TELL ME I’M LYING!
I know I’m not the only one who needs this kinda holding to birth my life’s work into the world.
I want my soul's calling to feel like a Pleasure Dom Daddy.
The one who reads my body like a treasure map.
Who knows exactly when to make tender love — and when to rail me against the wall in a sundress.
Who moans when he drinks from the sweetest nectar dripping between my thighs like it’s the food of the gods.
Who offers his seed to me like a holy sacrament. Who fills me with the overflow of his warmth and teaches me how to receive MORE.
Who stares directly into my fragile and feral eyes as I’m about to crack open and says, “I’ve got you. All of you.”
Am I turning you on?
Good. That’s the whole point.
Your business, aka your soul’s calling,
SHOULD turn you on!
Otherwise, why have a business at all?
Look, here’s the thing.
Most of us have been conditioned to live our lives in compartments.
“Turn on is for the bedroom.”
“Work is supposed to be a grind; that’s why it’s called work.”
Being turned on about your job?
Getting wet/hard when you feel a creative download pulse through you?
Imagining God pleasure Domming you into sacred submission to BLOOM and THRIVE as the divine creatrix you came here to be?
SHAMEFUL! NAUGHTY! SIN!
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?
You work to get a paycheck.
And then you retire.
And then you die.
Maybe you have some money to pass down to your grandkids if you’re lucky.
And that’s it.
BABES. We can do SO MUCH BETTER than this.
And before we go any further, don’t get this twisted.
Your life’s work doesn’t need to be sexual in nature to harness your erotic aliveness in business.
Sexual energy and Erotic energy
are NOT the same thing.
Sexual energy is life force in its most primal, reproductive form. It’s the energy of arousal, desire, orgasm, and procreation.
Erotic energy? Much MUCH vaster.
The erotic is the raw, wild pulse of aliveness that animates all things. It’s the energy of art, creation, beauty, longing, rebellion, and devotion.
It’s in a sunset that brings you to tears, the way a poem wraps around your ribcage, the shiver of truth in your spine when you speak something holy.
Audre Lorde described the erotic as “a source of power and information in our lives.”
It’s our felt sense of connection to the sacred within the sensual — the YESSSS that lives in the body.
Now, why do we need
to be turned on
for our soul’s calling?
Because turn-on
is a state of receptivity.
It’s when your body
says YES to life.
When your heart flutters, your skin hums, your womb contracts with a vision too potent to ignore — that’s your soul saying, “go this way, beloved.”
Turn-on isn’t just about pleasure — it’s about soul alignment.
When you’re erotically alive, you’re:
Magnetic — people feel your frequency, your aliveness becomes medicine
Creative — you become a channel for ideas, stories, and transmissions that seduce the soul
Courageous — because the erotic makes you feel more authentically YOU than anything else ever could
Tuned in — to the subtle whispers of your calling, the sacred ache of your purpose
A turned-on body is an oracle.
A turned-on voice is a revolution.
A turned-on life is a prayer answered.
You don’t have to be leaking sexual energy everywhere to be turned on.
You just have to be deeply, deliciously in the full expression of your aliveness.
Master Your Erotic Expression and
You will become MAGNETISM embodied.
Your frequency will speak before you ever do.
You will become a living, breathing landing page for your brand.
You will become a MAGNET for your right-fit clients and repel everyone who isn’t meant for you.
So, how exactly do we do this?
How do we liberate our erotic aliveness from the shackles of shame and all the cages we’ve built around how we should or shouldn’t express ourselves in our life’s work?
Come back tomorrow for Part 3, and I’ll tell you exactly how….
I put EROS in the driver's seat of my business.
What happened to my client-attraction in business as a result.
& SPOILER ALERT!
Why I’m burning my professional identity down and no longer calling myself a trauma-informed breathwork/somatic healer.
Buckle up, babes.
I’m peeling back the curtain, and you get a front row seat to the big reveal.
PROLOGUE
Part 3: I’m Burning my Biz Identity to the Ground
Bye-Bye, Breathwork Facilitator
Hello…
So here I was ceremony love,
After months of inner resistance to, “FUCK, I’m the one I’ve been waiting for….”
I found myself face-to-face with the undeniable truth…
I’m not WET for “Liberate with Lydia: Somatic Breathwork & Trauma Resolution for the Modern Mystic” anymore.
There was no more ignoring that my clinging to my carefully crafted professional identity was exactly why I was stuck in a cycle of creative freeze.
This was why it felt so heavy to post on Instagram.
This was why people have been asking me, “Are you still doing breathwork? What do you actually do for work, anyway?”
This was why I had inflammation and polyps on my cervix last month.
The answer was staring back at me all along.
It’s time to let it go.
And in this realization, I remembered that I’d done all this before.
We all have.
This is how the feminine force
that lives within all of us,
regardless of gender, creates.
Like the Rose,
she is born,
rises, blooms,
sheds her petals,
rots, and begins again.
There was Lydia, the Opera Singer
Lydia, the Voice Teacher
Lydia, the Breathwork Facilitator
Lydia, the Somatic Trauma Resolution Specialist
Each iteration required a sacrificial offering to cross the threshold.
The death of the old in order to make space for the new.
And NOT ONCE did I ever actually die.
In fact every rebirth cycle brought
More alignment
More purpose
More pleasure
More clients
More money
More love
More fulfillment
And the remembrance of this intuitive knowing that after the death comes MORE LIFE woke something deliciously erotic and primal within me.
It felt the way I do when I’m on the edge of being fucked open to meet GOD
in a cervical orgasm — ALIVE.
And in that moment of erotic aliveness — in the revelry of the sweet kiss of orgasmic death, he came to me.
I felt the presence of God as I so often do, not as a father, but as my divine lover.
My Divine Pleasure Dom Daddy.
He lifted my chin off the floor, looked dead into my eyes, and said….
“Lydia, baby girl — you know exactly WTF you came here for.
Tell me why your healing clients pay you.
What service are you really providing here?
You know damn well it’s not breathwork.
Or healing their trauma.
Or even getting certified to do what you do.
Say it out loud.
Tell me.
It’s not too much.
All of you is welcome here.”
Surrendered to the steadiness of his holding,
I melted into a puddle of raw, authentic erotic aliveness, met his gaze and said…
“I came here to BLOOM.
I came here to liberate erotic expression.
To help humanity HEAL our relationship with creation.
To use our power to create, not destroy this Earth.”
And as the words poured out, it ignited a holy, erotic rebirth that brought me to my knees and liberated the codes for a creative renaissance like I’ve never experienced before.
My womb, my heart, my voice, ALL my chakras aligned, and
I become CREATION itself.
And from the depths of my deepest womb of knowing,
I wrote…
“This is the whole
point of healing."
To create Heaven on Earth."
We aren’t just doing breathwork to feel our feelings to some vibing music on Zoom.
We are healing to Break FREE from all that’s keeping us bound in cycles of suffering and live a pleasurable, prosperous, and purposeful life.
We heal to create our version of heaven on earth on our own terms.
To harness our creative life force energy and leave this world better than we found it.
If you’re still here reading this,
it’s not just because you’re thinking,
“damn, who TF does this bitch think she is?”
It’s because there’s a part of you that
deep down desires this, too.
WE ALL DO.
And we all, no matter what we’ve been through, DESERVE IT.
And that’s exactly what I’m here to help you do.
But not hiding behind the identity of a breathwork healer, teacher, and somatic trauma resolution guide.
Just reading that now makes me yawn. Because that’s not my leading edge.
That’s not what actually gets my clients the most results in their lives and business.
I am a multidimensional midwife of creative rebirth.
I can hold the fullness of your authentic erotic expression with the gentle, but firm containment of a pleasure Domme.
The unconditional love and compassion of the Divine Mother.
And the oracular foresight of a Provocative Priestess Oracle who sees your soul’s gifts and says…
Let’s turn your soul’s ache into art
your pleasure into creative power
and your story into a movement that awakens, liberates — and sells.
THIS is why people come into my space and stick around for years…
To do the healing work of death and rebirth, so together we can midwife their most magnetic, alive, and turned-on SELF.
The version of them who is a living, breathing embodiment of their magnetic message.
To tap into their “DAMN, who is this bitch” FREQUENCY, and build their own version of a heaven on Earth life and business.
THIS right here, this is my Genius Witch Magick.
This is the special elixir
that no one else can do quite like me.
This is the TRIFECTA of erotic soul-calling glory…
What I get off on - It’s easy, regenerative, and delicious to my spirit.
What my clients get off on – to be the successful Creatrix’s they were born to be
What the world gets off on - to use our power for creation not destruction
THIS is the work
my future
Milk & Money Mama Self can 111% show up for
with a baby on her tit.
So as I release leading with my breathwork identity in the Belfire flames, I’m remembering this…
No matter what I call myself, I'm remembering that these are the soul gifts that come with me everywhere I go:
The one who’s helped 3,000+ humans heal trauma through breath, voice, and somatic liberation
The one who prioritizes safety and inclusivity in community spaces through consent, intersovereignty, and belonging
The one who walks with confidence and humility, who listens, who owns when she doesn’t have the answer
The one who will go into the shadow cave with you — and never, ever leave you there
The one who has built a six-figure soul-led business and knows how to turn words into portals and followers into family
So the million-dollar question remains — what will I be calling myself now?
Lemme tell ya as soon as I landed on the, “OH FUCK, THIS IS IT” name I cackled, cried, and came.
Because, like most soul callings, it’s the one we run away from the most, where our greatest gifts lie.
The thing that both terrifies and turns us ALL the way on.
Tomorrow I’m coming all the way outta the closet…
Phoenix rising from the ashes Style.
Are you ready for it?
Stay close.
I'm Lydia, The Liberatrix
Chief Erotic Oracle
Where Erotic Power
Meets Sacred Purpose
WelcomeFirst name Creatrix,
I came here to get your creative juices flowing and get you wet for your soul’s work.
To Liberate Your Erotic Expression and Midwife Your Magnetic Message.
To Craft Words Spells that SELL and get you PAID for your soul’s purpose.
I’m here to hold you — and unravel you.
To pleasure Domme you into your fullest bloom, while wrapping you in the warm, unwavering arms of the Divine Mother.
To awaken the parts of you that have been silenced, censored, and shamed — and return them to the altar of your truth.
To rebirth your raw, radiant, erotic expression into a world that is starving for your medicine.
I see you, Creatrix.
You’re a visionary, a healer, a sacred disruptor with a message that could ignite revolutions.
But right now, you're tangled in a web of your own brilliance.
“Everyone else is already saying it, what can I possibly contribute?"
"I'm a BOSS at what I do but I have NO idea how the fuck to talk about it."
Your message feels too raw, too real, or too risqué.
You’re afraid of being misunderstood, of being canceled, of being too much, or not enough.
So you do what witches have learned to do for centuries — HIDE.
Hide your true magic, your eros, your soul gifts — your POWER.
You’ve learned to contort and censor yourself because there’s a part of you that believes this is how you’ll stay safe. (A valid AF ancestral trauma response to the mass murder of witches)
But here’s the truth…
Self-abandonment doesn’t keep you safe, it keeps you SMALL.
When you betray the essence of who you really are to be palatable for the masses, the only person who ends up cancelling you…IS YOU.
That's where I come in.
You don’t need another marketing guru
telling you to niche down or
write better copy with Chat GPT.
You need an oracle who sees you in your fullness,
who can hold space
for your fears
and your fire,
who can help you
transmute your shame
into raw, authentic power.
Because the most magnetic frequency isn’t gratitude or even love — It’s AUTHENTICITY.
It’s what makes you ICONIC.
Irreplaceable.
And Irresistible to your soulmate, “where has this witch been my whole life!?” clients.
I’m not here to give you a script.
I’m here to help you say the things you see.
To write the words your ideal client is aching to hear.
To speak the spells that set you and your audience FREE.
…and to embody
the Erotic magnetism that gets you paid for your purpose.
Because here’s the truth: your unique message is what motivates the lurkers in your DMs to mobilize.
Your raw, captivating storytelling is what tugs at the heartstrings of your ideal clients in waiting and sets you apart from everyone else.
And your erotic frequency is the nectar that draws all the right bees into your honeypot.
JUST BY BEING YOU.
The REAL you.
Not the watered-down palatable version – The You who didn’t come here to fuck around.
The you who didn’t start a soul-led business just to put yourself in another cage.
The you who came here to ERUPT and disrupt the system, one post at a time.
Is this getting you wet?
Good. You’ve come to the right place.
How I Serve You
My work is a devotional offering. A sacred yes to your becoming. I do not serve from the pedestal — I serve from the altar.
Because I’ve walked through the fire of my own unraveling, I can hold yours without flinching.
Because I’ve faced the depths of my own shadows, there is nothing in your story I fear.
Because I’ve met the fullness of my desire, there’s no place too high for you to rise.
Nothing too messy. Nothing too wild.
Nothing too tender, too erotic, too undone to be welcomed here.
When we work together, you are met — fully. Held in the holy tension of softness and ferocity. Loved in your grief. Celebrated in your pleasure. Witnessed in your rage.
I bring the sensitivity of years in trauma-informed somatic facilitation, the soul of a mystic, the voice of a siren, and the heart of a priestess in service to something far greater than just “conscious business marketing.”
Because men in starched suits playing out their childhood trauma in government offices
aren’t coming to save us.
It’s up to US now.
If we wanna see a better world, we’re gonna have to birth it together.
Together, we’ll unravel the knots that have kept you silent. We’ll explore the depths of your desires, the roots of your fears, the essence of your mission.
We’ll craft a message that’s not just authentic, but magnetic. A message that resonates with the souls you’re here to serve. A message that feels like home.
This isn’t about marketing. This is about reclaiming your erotic power and using it to light the way for others.
If you’re ready to stop hiding and start leading, to stop conforming and start creating, to stop silencing yourself and start singing your soul’s song,
You’ve come to the right place.
Come back tomorrow for a juicy taste of what’s possible when you put your most turned-on, erotically expressed, Chief Erotic Oracle in the driver’s seat of your life and business.
The future of the
feminine in business is
fed, fucked, and financed.
Welcome to your
Chief Erotic Oracle Era
There’s a new Chief Erotic Oracle in town love,
And she didn’t come to play by the rules she inherited from the Bro Marketing Capitalist Matrix.
She is working whenever she wants, wherever she wants.
She isn’t hustling and grinding her way to the top— she is digging down in the soil and plugging into the mycelial network.
She is remembering the village and the red thread of sisterhood.
She is collaborating, not competing.
She remembers there is room in the garden for ALL of us to Bloom.
She is “fed, fucked, and financed” (@zodi_am) by her work, her lovers, and LIFE itself.
She doesn’t post, she transmits. She doesn’t write copy, she scribes spells.
She is resourced and serving from an overflowing cup.
She has money. Money to save. Money to share. Money to circulate. She IS currency.
She is a force of nature and she didn’t come here to fuck around.
She is looking at the state of the world right now and saying, “ENOUGH.” We can do SO much better than this.
Everything we need to birth a better world is pulsing between our thighs.
She’s seeing into the future world our children and grandchildren will inherit and says, “It’s time to get to work.”
Because men in starched suits playing out their childhood trauma in government offices aren’t coming to save us.
It’s up to US now.
If we want to see a better world, we’re going to have to birth it ourselves.
It will take many, many wombs and many midwives.
We may never see it in our lifetime.
And that’s not the point.
Because it’s not just about us anymore.
We need all hands on deck, in our own right-sized, right-paced ways, to bring our gifts ALL THE WAY online for us to birth a new world.
Because this isn’t just about Personal & Professional Healing anymore. This Is Planetary Rebirth.
I believe in a New Earth.
An Earth rooted in reciprocity. Clean water. Sacred Land Stewardship. Collective liberation.
Where the divine feminine is no longer hidden, but centered. Revered. Lived.
Every breath we take…Every voice we free… Every layer we shed…It is a seed in that global blooming.
Liberate with Lydia is not a brand — it’s a living temple.
A sanctuary of remembrance. A sacred site for soul retrieval. A place where your body is holy. Your voice is medicine. Your story is sacred.
And I am here to walk with you, as you come home to the priestess,
the creatrix,
the leader,
and the lover
you truly are.
Tomorrow I’m announcing my NEW signature 3-month LIVE program to guide Divine Creatrixes like you out of the spiritual closet and into the erotic edge of your true soul work.
No more hiding. No more pretending to be smaller than your calling.
We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
And it’s time to get to werk.
A new world is possible. But only if we birth it. Together.
Your invitation is coming…Stay close.
It's time to erupt and disrupt
the way of doing business.
Introducing…
A 3-Month Rebirth Temple for the
Hidden Creatrix, ready to
Midwife your Magnetic Message
+ Unleash your Divine Transmission
that sets you, and the world – FREE.
Temple Doors Open in 7 Days. Our Journey begins June 2nd.
My gorgeous First name / Creatrix,
It's time to turn your soul’s ache into art, your pleasure into creative power, and your story into a movement that awakens, liberates — and sells.
Because launching your work into the world should feel like getting fucked open by God.
It’s time to be claimed by your calling.
Undone by your truth, and dripping with the raw magnetism of your whole, holy self.
You’re not here to play small, be polite, or water it down.
You came here to
be heard.
You came here to be fully seen.
To erupt. To express. To fuck some shit up in the name of consciousness-shifting collective liberation.
To consensually seduce the world with your soul-piercing message that mobilizes.
It’s time to harness your full range of authentic erotic expression as a healing portal for you and an irresistible magnet for your soul-aligned clients.
To lead from your most delicious, juiced-up erotic aliveness.
An embodied energetic signature that Chat GPT could never possibly replicate.
Where your scroll-stopping storytelling emits an unmistakable frequency that heals, connects, and sells.
Without oversharing or overholding.
Without performing or pushing.
Without exploiting your trauma or shame spiraling.
Without self-extraction, stretching past your edges…
Without getting naked (metaphorically or literally) on the internet– unless you want to, of course. ;)
And certainly, without feeling outcast and alone.
Your medicine isn’t for everyone. But for the right people, it’s the miracle drug they’ve been praying for.
But here’s the truth…
In order to convert lukewarm lurkers into HOT ride
or die client besties, you need to confront the
THREE things preventing you from coming
ALL the way out of the Creatrix closet.
1. The fear of being seen
2. The fear of being misunderstood
3. and the fear of being abandoned
Conquer this, and you will become an unstoppable force for change.
The days of hoarding your medicine are over.
The paradigm has shifted — and I know you feel it in your bones.
We did not incarnate here to whisper half-truths into an algorithm.
We came here to crack the world open with our truth.
The days of watering down your message into bite-sized, palatable portions for the masses?
Dead.
No more censoring your power to stay safe.
No more filtering your message through the “Good Girl” gaze.
No more tiptoeing around the very thing your right-fit client is desperately praying someone would just say out loud.
Because what stands out online now is not strategy. It’s soul.
It’s the voice that carries medicine — the kind that pierces, awakens, liberates.
And no one else has yours.
To kink your calling is to stop performing and start transmitting.
To take the stories you’ve survived, the shame you’ve swallowed, the pleasure you’ve reclaimed —and turn them into a holy message that makes your people say: “FUCK YES! WHERE CAN I SIGN UP!?"
Because launching your work into the world should feel like getting fucked open by God —not through pain, but through divine surrender.
Claimed by your calling.
Penetrated by purpose.
Turned on by the very act of being seen in your full, unfiltered glory.
This is the marketing revolution you've been aching for.
The Creatrix doesn’t chase. She radiates.
She doesn’t pitch. She pulls.
She doesn’t play small — she sets the room on fire.
You came here to midwife a new world.
And it starts with your story.
Stay ready.
Your revolution is closer than you think. ;)
Getting OFF
on getting cancelled.
That time I went Viral
and got burned for it.
How I kinked my way out of the witch's closet
and into my soul's calling.
I've got tea to spill love,
Once upon a time, I censored every word I wrote.
Swallowed the wildest parts of my truth to stay safe.
Shapeshifted into the “good girl trauma-informed healer,” I thought I needed to be.
The one who tripped over her tongue trying to “Keep everyone safe. Offend no one. Make everyone happy.”
Until my perfectly curated life in Connecticut, a marriage, money, and a thriving healing business — all burned to the ground.
It was right before Christmas.
So I did what I thought every heartbroken I-haven't-been-single-in-15 years divorcée was supposed to do…fucked off to Europe to live my best Cameron Diaz Holiday abroad.
And that's exactly how I ended up in Slovakia fucking my 24-year-old EDM festival lover in a penthouse straight out of Christian Grey’s wet dream.
But this story has very little to do with this secret lover and everything to do with what was unlocked within me inside those 4 walls.
Did we have some very fun times in that Slovak sex pad? Yes, yes we did.
But the truth is, I spent way more time alone in that apartment than I ever did with my Slovak lover boy.
By day, I read “Existential Kink” by Carolyn Elliot and got off on the
dumpster fire of my life.
By night, I surrendered to GOD as my Dom Daddy— meeting and transmuting the deepest wounds of my childhood sexual trauma.
Cocooned in this hidden nest with walls so thick no one could hear my wails, I spent hours meeting the very darkest, juiciest parts of my Shadow and learned how to kink the SHIT out of my healing.
I gave myself radical permission to GET OFF on a lifetime of accumulated hurts from all the times I felt dropped and abandoned by the masculine.
To find pleasure in the part of me that sought revenge through subconsciously tearing down and emasculating the men in my life.
Within the container of a conscious kink space, I’d take myself on odysseys of sacred somatic scenes, complete with Renaissance choral music and blindfolds as I began building NEW pathways linking pleasure with forgiveness, worthiness, and unconditional self-love.
It cracked me wide open. And for the first time…I started
telling the truth.
Not just with my words,
but with my body.
For 7 years, I’d built a reputation as a powerhouse breathwork facilitator in the field of trauma resolution.
I’d held space for the darkest wounds — incest, rape, childhood molestation —but had never spoken publicly about my own story.
Maybe I was afraid it wasn’t dark enough. Maybe I still thought parts of me were shameful. Maybe I was too afraid of what they’d think.
Until I hit the bottom of the barrel of fucks to give.
And I said: ENOUGH.
I couldn’t stay silent anymore. Not if I wanted to be truly free.
So I told the story.
Dressed in black lingerie, snake earrings,
and red lipstick, I filmed myself writhing,
screaming, sobbing —
unearthing the caged animal inside me.
And I hit post.
The Post That Got Everyone Talking
What followed was eight weeks of haunting.
First, fellow survivors flooded my DMs with, “Thank you. I didn’t know this kind of healing was possible.”
Then the wrong side of the internet found me.
The unintegrated masculine. The Bible thumpers. The witches-burners, reincarnated and raging.
They called me a witch. A whore. A demon. A psychopath.
Modern-day pitchforks swinging just in time for my first divorced Christmas.
And you know what?
It turned me ON.
It cracked me even wider.
It burned away the last filmy layer
of, “please love me” clinging to my skin.
For the first time, I wasn’t just seen for my soft, trauma-sensitive holding.
I was seen for my wild, soul-stirring expression.
The fire didn’t destroy me. It resurrected me.
And out of the ashes, I learned I have a kink for radical, liberated, authentic self-expression.
The kind that doesn’t just free me — but frees the collective spell of sexual abuse through the holy exposure of shadow.
Because here’s the truth.
The fear of being misunderstood, canceled, or exiled — isn’t what stops you from rising.
It’s the parts of you still trying to earn your belonging.
And when you let that old perception of “I need everyone to love me" burn…
When you let yourself get turned on by your own raw truth…
When you allow yourself to unapologetically love your shadow just as much as your light— you become unstoppable.
You become holy wildfire.
A glitch in the matrix.
A force of nature that looks at the state of the world and says ENOUGH.
We can do better than this.
This, my love, is exactly how
I kinked my way out of the witch’s closet.
Not by softening. Not by sanitizing.
But by surrendering deeper
into my feral, erotic, sovereign soul.
This is why I birthed KINK YOUR CALLING.
Because when we dare to be fully seen as who we are, we don’t just set ourselves free.
We set the world on FIRE.
We rise from the ashes — wetter, wilder, pulsing with the force that birthed the cosmos.
Not a power that lives in the sky.
But the power that’s been hidden right between your legs all along.
First name / beloved, your erotic aliveness is needed now more than ever.
Right here, right now, we are midwifing a New World.
One that will rise from the ashes of political chaos and corruption.
One where your voice isn’t a liability — it’s your liberation.
One where your story isn’t something to hide — it’s a spell for those who need to remember who they really are.
One where your “too much” becomes “MORE PLEASE.”
Where launching your work doesn’t feel like suffering, but like holy, feral, full-body pleasure.
Not just to crack you open —but to crack the world open, too.
Stay ready. The fire is coming.
And this time, it’s here to set you free.
Your ache for more money
isn’t dirty - it’s your destiny.
and it's here to set you
(and the world) FREE
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Welcome back to your daily dose of forbidden fruit First name / babe.
On the menu for today?
Money and Sex.
The twin taboos that stir up the most heat, guilt, and holy hunger in our collective psyche.
Both are portals of power. Both are charged with deep desire.
Both are laced with layers upon layers of collective shame.
Shame if you have it — and flaunt it.
Shame if you’re struggling — and can’t seem to figure it out.
Shame if it turns you on.
Shame if it shuts you down.
Money and sex mirror our inherited beliefs around worth, control,
and receiving.
They hold the stories of our lineage.
They echo the silent conditioning of “too much,” “not enough,” and “who do you think you are?”
Maybe you’ve told yourself…
“If I have more money, then I’m part of the problem, not the solution.”
“So many people have nothing, who am I to ask for more?”
“I’d rather stay small than burn out climbing to the top.”
I know that ache intimately – and the stories that go with it, love.
Because I’ve felt it too.
For years, I tried to suppress my desire for more money, more impact, more recognition — as if longing for these things made me another dirty capitalist sellout slut hiding behind the mask of spirituality and healing.
But the truth is, the longing for more
in your life isn’t the problem.
And neither is money.
The ache inside you wasn’t meant to be silenced, bypassed, or ignored.
It wants to be obeyed.
Because DESIRE isn’t a flaw in your design.
It’s a summons.
The yearning is how your soul tells you that YOU were born for so much more.
And not just for you —but for the world you came here to rebirth.
Because money consciously circulated through the hands of healers, artists, witches, and wild-hearted visionaries?
Isn't greed.
It's medicine.
It's reparations.
It's money invested in Indigenous land buybacks.
In rewilding our soil.
In regenerative agriculture and clean water.
In our education system.
In paid maternity AND paternity leave.
In small businesses with families to feed.
In art, culture, music, and theater that reminds us what it means to be human.
And so, SO much more. THINK of the things we could create together if we had the resources.
As my biz witch mentor Rachael Maddox says, “World changing witches need world changing wealth to fund our world-changing resources.”
That’s the currency of the New Earth.
Your ache to serve bigger, shine brighter,
receive deeper — isn’t something to fix.
It’s your destiny to CLAIM.
Because we are midwifing a new world now. Not tomorrow. Today.
A world where your desire for MORE becomes your map.
Where your longing becomes your leadership.
Where your pleasure becomes your prayer.
And where the money that flows through your business becomes a vessel for collective liberation.
Inside Kink Your Calling, I will teach you exactly how to craft an ICONIC, embodied brand message that gets you PAID for your PURPOSE.
I will show you how to become poetry in motion and a living, breathing landing page for your business.
You will learn how to magnetize your “TAKE MY MONEY” clients — the ones who will follow you through every new death and rebirth cycle of your medicine, JUST BY BEING YOU.
This is your portal to stop “fixing” yourself and start following yourself home.
To the body. To the fire. To the truth.
To the legacy your soul came here to birth.
Your ache for more isn't dirty. It isn't wrong. It's the KEY to everything.
Stay close, love.
We’re about to blow the temple doors off.
Tomorrow I’m spilling the tea on the full low-down for Kink Your Calling.
More cumming soon…
Temple Doors Open in 3 Days. Our Journey begins June 2nd.
Today we're rocking no fluff, just facts Creatrix…
This email is for those of you who are picking up what I'm putting down and wanna know more about exactly what we're gonna be getting up to this summer inside Kink Your Calling.
So I'm gonna give it to you straight up today, and save the storytelling for later.
Doors are opening in 3 DAYS - Monday, May 12th (Full Moon in Scorpio cuz why not be kinky like that!) and I'm dropping 2 TASTY TREATS as bonuses for those of you who jump in in the first 48 hours.
Keep Reading and save this email if you want to know exactly who this for, all about the curriculum, what you'll be walking away with, class dates, times, and of course, the investment.
Kink Your Calling is for You IF…
You're experienced in business and have lost the creative spark. You're not lit up about your offers, messaging, or the clients you're attracting.
You feel like you're selling to crickets. The people who like your stories and comments are friends and family…fans, not buyers. You're frustrated that the offers you worked so hard on aren't selling.
You're brand new to business and have a ton of skills, but no idea how to begin to talk about your work on social media. The idea of putting together an offering feels overwhelming.
You want to start creating an offer but are feeling tired and uninspired. You're lacking direction and really want to feel clear on your soul calling.
You're pivoting in business and want support through the death and rebirth portal as you figure out who you are, what you're here to do, and who you're here to serve.
You’re ready to stop white-knuckling your launches and are ready for sales to feel like one long, extended orgasm. The thought of feeling fed, fucked, and financed by your soul's work makes you wet.
You're aching for a space you can weave the sacred back into sales in a environment that is sex positive, gender affirming, trauma-informed, and gets down with all the witchy things in service of personal and collective liberation.
BOOK A FREE DISCOVERY CALL TODAY
Am I speaking to your soul, babe?
If so, keep on reading for all the details.
Kink Your Calling BEGINS June 2nd and ends September 1st
You'll Receive…
7 Live Creatrix Temple Workshops Mondays from 11-1:30pm EST (exact dates below, yes calls are recorded)
3 Intimate Small Group Coven Calls for 1:1 hot seat coaching, feedback, & belonging (no more than 5 people per coven)
7 2-week Challenges - Seduce your soul’s calling and make bold, magnetic, practical moves that actually move the needle forward
Telegram Temple Chat for voice note riffing, real-time support, and spellcasting with your creatrix covenmates. I'll be in there 1x a week for office hours to answer all your questions.
Ritual Homework & Somatic Practices to anchor each temple workshop into your body, brand, and message.
Final Temple Showcase to express and exalt your message (spoken word, sales post, launch video…whatever turns you on!)
ALL CLASSES RECORDED and uploaded into a portal for lifetime, on-demand access to replays.
That's the overview! It's an intentional combination of large group, small group, 1:1, community space, challenges (with prizes!) and accountability support. I will tell you this format is THE TITS. I'm in a mastermind like this right now and not only is it fun, it's massively affective at getting results.
Keep reading to dive deeper into the Curriculum…
The Kink Your Calling 7-Step Method
7 Creatrix Temple Workshops
to Midwife your Magnetic Message +
Unleash your Revolutionary Divine Transmission
into the world
1. OBEY THE ACHE: Surrender to Your Soul’s Calling.
Monday, June 2nd, 11 am-1 pm EST
Remember how to obey the ache and treat your longing not as a distraction, but as a compass. You’ll root into the truth that being of service doesn’t mean sacrifice…it means letting your desire become your divine directive.
You'll walk away…
Reconnected to your “WHY”...the soul-call beneath the noise
Anchored in your full-body YES to the path you’re here to walk
Turned on by the idea of serving from pleasure, not pressure
2. EDGEPLAY & EXPOSURE: Rewire Belonging & Safety in Being Seen
Monday, June 9th, 11 am - 1:30 pm EST
What if being seen could feel safe? What if it could feel… sexy? Explore your edges of visibility using sacred kink, somatic reparenting, and breathwork rituals that help you stay anchored in your body as you stretch into fuller expression.
You'll walk away…
Resourced in your body when sharing your truth online or in person
Rooted in pleasure as you expand your visibility
Held by a coven that reminds you: you don’t have to do this alone
3. KINK THE WOUND. Claim Your Past & Tell Your Story
Monday, July 7th, 11 am - 1:30 pm EST
Meet the part of you who knows how to turn pain into power, shame into gold, and your story into soul-led messaging that connects and SELLS. No more mimicking. No more hiding behind vague words. This is where your real voice comes online.
You'll walk away…
Embodied in an empowered message that sets you and your soulmate clients FREE
Clear on how to talk about yourself in a way that positions you as both relatable and an expert in your industry
Connected to a limitless supply of creative storytelling and content ideas
4. FIND YOUR FREAKQUENCY. Stop Shapeshifting. Start Transmitting.
Monday, July 21st, 11 am - 1:30 pm EST
Uncover your unique FREAKquency, the unfiltered energetic signature that makes you unforgettable. This is the part of you that turns heads, not by performing, but by pulsing pure erotic aliveness
You'll walk away…
Turn ON by what makes your energy impossible to ignore
Embodied in your unique voice, message, and pussy juice magnetism
Resilient in the face of judgment, cancel culture, and comparison
5. SPEAK IN SPELLS: Stop the Scroll. Stir the Soul.
Monday, August 4th 11 am – 1:30 pm EST
You’ll craft a soul-aligned brand voice that cuts through the noise and connects on a cellular level. No more overthinking or diluting your message. You’ll learn how to let your true essence speak clearly, boldly, and irresistibly.
You'll walk away…
With an authentic brand voice that feels like truth in motion
A creative expression social media/newsletter blueprint that turns heads and opens hearts
Rituals to keep your message flowing from intuition, not just strategy (and certainly not from a disembodied soulless AI bot)
6. LAUNCH LIKE A DOMME: Penetrate with Presence.
Monday, August 18th, 11 am - 1:30 pm EST
Reclaim launching as an erotic, embodied spiritual ritual that gets you PAID! You’ll learn to lead with a frequency that penetrates and consensually seduces the souls you’re meant to serve. You won’t chase. You won’t beg. You’ll call them in with such magnetic presence they’ll feel the pull in their bones.
You’ll walk away…
With a launch frequency plan built on pleasure, power, rest, and energetic precision
Rituals to stay grounded in your magnetic JUICE and irresistible in your messaging
A clear understanding of exactly how to show up on and offline for your offers to sell
7. RECEIVE LIKE A QUEEN: Open to Clients & Cashflow
Monday, September 1st 11 am - 1:30 pm EST
This final Creatrix Temple is about stepping into holy receptivity, where the energy you’ve poured out flows back in. Where clients land in your inbox. Payments ping. Praise floods your DMs. And it all feels safe, deserved, and deeply pleasurable.
You’ll walk away with…
Somatic practices to prepare to receive more money and clients without burning out
Rituals for allowing money, clients, celebration and miracles to enter your space
A feeling of sovereign empowerment - bye-bye anxious attachment to launching
New Soulmate Coven Biz Besties <3
7 - 2.5 hour Group Classes are paired with 3 - 1:1 Hot-Seat Coaching Sessions in a Small Coven Setting
1:1 coaching with Lydia (that's me) in a small group of peers, to build capacity and courage to be seen and heard in an environment of relational belonging. (25-30 min of 1:1 coaching per person each session)
No more than 5 people max in a cohort
Dates & Times:
June 30th or July 1
July 28th or 29th
August 25th or 26
We'll place you in a cohort that fits your timezone/schedule
Your Investment
Yes, let's talk about the money, honey!
3-months of having what should be an illegal amount of fun midwifing your magnetic message and honing your divine FREAKquency to get paid for your purpose is yours for…
1 easy payment of $2997
6 monthly payments of $555
annnnd….for those of you feeling juiced UP to sign up in the first 48 hours, you'll get 2 bonuses to enhance your experience (valued at $7k)…but because I'm a little slut for a good strip tease you'll have to come back tomorrow to find out what they are. ;) hehe
In the meantime…if all of the above got you feeling a certain kinda way inside (wet!) and you'd love to have some no-pressure-nobody's-gonna-ask you-for-a-credit-card let's just vibe it out chat…
You can book a FREE discovery call below and together we'll feel into the FREAKquency of this program is a good fit.
Beyond excited to see who comes into this portal first…buckle up babes, we are in for QUITE the summer together!
More cumming soon…
xx Lydia
I wanna spoil you Creatrixwith over $7k worth of bonuses and give you the BEST fucking hot CEO summer of your life!
I want you to feel like you got 10x your money's worth (and then some) when you sign up for Kink Your Calling.
That when you're doing your taxes in 2026, and Steve, your accountant, says, “hmmmm Kink Your Calling, tell me about this write-off!?"
You get to say, “This is why we're making money now!”
Yesterday we went over the nuts & bolts of exactly what's inside Kink Your Calling, who it's for, and how it can help you.
Today, I wanna put some icing on the cake.
Because here's the thing, I LOVE rewarding people who follow their soul's calling.
Those who listen to their intuition and trust that it never guides them wrong.
Those who say, yup, this is totally for me, and even if I'm scared, I'm gonna trust the pull that is drawing me into this next timeline in business.
So if this is you, if you've been on the edge of a big orgasmic, “YAS, TAKE ME THERE” in business, I want to put the CHERRY ON TOP!
So without further ado…I present to you the Kink Your Calling Fast-Action Bonuses.
When you sign up in the first 48 hours…
That's Monday, May 12th - Wednesday, May 14th at 11:59 pm EST, here's what you get…
BONUS #1: An EXTRA Private 1:1 Hot Seat
Small Group Coaching Session with yours truly
What we'll cover in your BONUS 1:1 hot seat coaching
Extra 1:1 time to dive deep into midwifing your personalized brand story and magnetic messaging. Together we'll feel into exactly where you are in your marketing and messaging journey — what's working, what's not, and uncover the story that wants to be told through the vessel of your brand — YOUR BODY.
Leave feeling clearer and with a leg up on the Kink Your Calling Curriculum.
BONUS #2: LIFETIME ACCESS to
The Liberation Collective Portal -
An On-Demand Breathwork Temple for Embodied Healing, Ritual, and Creative Rebirth ($7k value)
What you’ll get inside this on-demand temple:
The Breathwork Vault
2,000+ hours of potent guided healing transmissions available on-demand. Pick a class theme and press play.
Quick-Fix Library
Shift your state in 15 minutes or less. Short & Sweet guided meditations, somatic practices, chanting, and more to incorporate into your everyday self-care routine.
The Rituals & Resources Library
Rituals, Workbooks, and Resources to Support the many seasons and cycles of your life.
Private Telegram Community Chat
Connect with the most welcoming global healing community for support, belonging, breathwork replay watch parties, and celebration.
I'm OBSESSED with spoiling you with over 4 years of transmissions and an entire body of work because The Liberation Collective is WAY more than a virtual healing library.
It’s a living altar of liberation.
This will be your new place to go in business when…
* Your nervous system is fried, and you need to ground back into your body
* You’re cracked open from plant medicine and longing for sacred integration
* You feel stuck, silenced, or creatively blocked
* You’re navigating heartbreak, grief, trauma, or visibility fear
* You want to feel God inside your breath again
Both of these Bonuses are my gift to you when you choose to TRUST the pull and say YES to Kink Your Calling.
As a recap, here's a summary of what's inside…
* 7 Live Creatrix Temple Workshops (RECORDED) (2.5 hours) every other Monday @ 11 am EST starting June 2nd.
* 3 Intimate Small Group Coven Calls (RECORDED) for 1:1 hot seat coaching, feedback, & belonging (no more than 5 people per coven)
* 7 2-week Challenges - Seduce your soul’s calling and make bold, magnetic, practical moves that actually move the needle forward
* Telegram Temple Chat for voice note riffing, real-time support, and spellcasting with your creatrix covenmates. Office hours with me 1x a week to answer all your Q's.
* Ritual Homework & Somatic Practices to anchor each temple into your body, brand, and message
* Final Temple Showcase to express and exalt your message (spoken word, sales post, launch video — whatever turns you on!)
BONUSES for the First 48-Hour Sign-Ups
* An EXTRA Private 1:1 Hot Seat Small Group Coaching Session with Lydia on June 3rd or 6th
* LIFETIME ACCESS to The Liberation Collective Portal - An On-Demand Breathwork Temple for Embodied Healing, Ritual, and Creative Rebirth ($7k value)
Wanna feel it out together before jumping in? I've opened up discovery calls for Monday-Wednesday to explore if Kink Your Calling is the right fit for you.
Here for you, your vision, and the story that can only be told through you.
SO EXCITED FOR MONDAY!!!!
So much love & all the juice,